You had a bad day!

Or rather: I had a crappy day!

I suffer from insomnia from time to time. I wake up really early and just can't go back to sleep. It sucks. This often occurs when I'm under a lot of stress at work, which I used to be some year back. Yet I fail to see that my work situation is that stressful these days. I experience my life to be quite nice at this point. I enjoy my work which challenges me, my colleagues who are nice and fun, my friends, I do fun stuff.

But this past week has been like an emotional roller coaster and it makes me sick. Quite literal. Today I suddenly just lost all energy and almost burst into tears. I just couldn't handle things. I know that this happens when the insomnia goes too far. Nothing else to do but to give in and go home.

I managed to make an appointment to see a doctor on monday about the insomnia since I'm worried that it's something physical that causes it. Anyhow, this can't go on because it's making me nuts.

I was chatting with E earlier and she proved once again to be the best friend one can have! She listened to my worries and my anguish and my rantings. Then she simply said: "Eat, sleep, be nice to yourself because you had a bad day." And maybe it is that simple?

"Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day"

(Daniel Powter)